Tis my birthday today!
Crap nights sleep, just kept waking up and had a not so nice dream before I woke finally. Am currently in Scotland for one of my best friends parents wedding over this past weekend. Hopefully going to this local island today to take pics and chill out. Hopefully I'll be posting so mpics of the wedding and our ventures about the place in the next few days.
Absolutely loving it up here, but it's made me think that I came so fucking close to never experiencing all the fun I've had over this weekend and the love I've been given unconditionally by my friend's family and friends. I'm pretty damn sure I don't want to make any more idiotic mistakes again.
I still can't stop thinking about what has happened, I think I just want to punish myself constantly for what has happened and who I have hurt. I know that I need to move on and I can't wait around for if I'm ever forgiven but there is always a part of me that will hate myself forever for how stupid I have been..... But at least a chosen few can see through my mistakes.
Anyways, think I'm gonna sleep again for a bit.
Crap nights sleep, just kept waking up and had a not so nice dream before I woke finally. Am currently in Scotland for one of my best friends parents wedding over this past weekend. Hopefully going to this local island today to take pics and chill out. Hopefully I'll be posting so mpics of the wedding and our ventures about the place in the next few days.
Absolutely loving it up here, but it's made me think that I came so fucking close to never experiencing all the fun I've had over this weekend and the love I've been given unconditionally by my friend's family and friends. I'm pretty damn sure I don't want to make any more idiotic mistakes again.
I still can't stop thinking about what has happened, I think I just want to punish myself constantly for what has happened and who I have hurt. I know that I need to move on and I can't wait around for if I'm ever forgiven but there is always a part of me that will hate myself forever for how stupid I have been..... But at least a chosen few can see through my mistakes.
Anyways, think I'm gonna sleep again for a bit.
elliott:
Happy Birthday!!!! x
zahariel:
Hope youve had a happy birthday and sometimes the first part of moving on from these mistakes is actually forgiving yourself, everyone is allowed to make these massive mistakes, if your friends can see through them then maybe you can too.