lightandshade

wow, so, hello and stuff. Happy holidays. Life has been shitpile after shitpile. Effie had been the one positive, but things became apparent that it was going nowhere as she kept telling me that she was still in love with her ex, and things came to a head on Friday night. Oh, and I think that the reason I was avoiding Samantha, my ex, is because I was afraid that I still have feelings for her. She came over tonight and I felt like I was so stupid for even breaking things off in the first place... plus, she never had the abortion, so, you guessed it, I'm gonna be a dad. So that is double the reason for me to be in the picture. And it feels so right to be with her. She is just plain awesome. I think being with Effie reminded me of the things i need in a woman, and Samantha has them.

So yeah, I still don't have a job, I'm working on putting a band together, and my mom has been paying all of my bills for the last 2 months. Life is wunderbar here in my world...