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"I want something I cannot have..." That is a thought from the other day. It was really more of a realization, a statement, an epiphany, a momentary perception of the very essence of the crooked equilibrium of my life. I want something that isn't mine. I had led myself to believe I was so over this, and for a year, I really was over this. Then in a flick of a finger it all came back to me. Still, it doesn't change a thing - it is not mine to have and it is not my decision to make. So it is and so it shall stay...