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Yesterday I talked to Dave (boyfriend) about everything thats going on, And how Im basically going crazy. Apparently everything is going to be okay. I told him that I cant let go of what he did because he doesnt give me reason to trust him. &That he doesnt make me feel like he wants me here He said he does want me here. He got a little scared that I wanted to leave, I thought it was cute. He told me he'd try harder to talk to me about things, And that he's just really tired, Not go to sleep tired, But tired of everything. Just not tired of me, Cause he cares about me. We hugged, I told him we'd work on everything a little bit at a time.
It made me feel better, But I have a feeling its not over yet. This is going to be a journey.
Fucker is lucky I love him.
(for details on this, Refer to previous blogs.)


About today,
I just pierced my lip for the thousandth time, Maybe I'll keep it a while this time.
See here, Its just a little speck of as piercing but its there haha


Im supposed to be going out to lunch with my grandmother in a few hours, But I'll post another blog about that later because there's a bit of a story behind my grandmother I feel like I should share.
Daves friend, Matt Denault, is coming over today. They're going to be making mead (German beer). Its going to involve talking to a beekeeper to get a whole LOT of honey, ANd some tubes and special bottled, And two months of time. Its like a little science experiment for the guys I guess. I hope I'll be home before they leave, I kinda want to see the beekeeper with them.