licksandlashings

I am slightly drunk right now. I have work in about 4 more hours.. I have no idea what I am doing w/ my life..
I guess I'm going to college next month. I'm still working at Guess? Inc.
But, I am always feeling like something is sorta missing. Like I could be doing something else, that isn't getting shit faced drunk or going to parties, or going to clubs..
I recently saw a dog in the pet store.. I wanted her sOo badly. She was beautiful. Alaskian husky. Not even like 6 months old or something.. Maybe that would be good for me.. getting a pet.. Maybe I need to have my motherly intincts kick in.. It's reasons like that, that I hate being a chic.. because I somehow feel imcomplete.. DAMN IT! It's all about the fucking programming..

As for my sexual escapades.. Even though I know all these ppl, and do all these things. I feel the most happy, when I am w/ Aaron. I kind of want to like back out now... and it's not because I am afraid, it's because I know I'm going to hurt him in the end.. It's just my personality.. It's just the way I was raised.
-It's like what doll collectors do. Their most treasured dolls, they never fucking touch. Because they care about them the most.. oi.