Thursday Aug 12, 2010

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Three months since my last post, poetic no?
Truth be told it's more an accident more than anything else. I've been on another planet. I came by to check on someone. [crazy glad to hear you are doing better Simon]
So, yeah, three months. It would be easy for me to spill my guts out about every minute detail that has happened since...
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Thursday May 06, 2010

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I had planned to blog on friday of last week about how it had been a whole year since I had been fired.
Then on thursday of last week my step daughter was kicked in the head by a horse.

Funny how lots of shit just seems to not matter anymore when you have a child in the picu. She's finally stable so I...
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_solipsist_:

Sounds like my parents and the wonders of the universe...... smile

So she is comatose?
I hope she's ok and you and her other family members are coping well. smile

_solipsist_:

God that sucks....... I'll cross my fingers and all of that happy stuff for you guys.

I know those screams from working in the ER...... nothing quite as anguished sounding in the world. I don't have kids so I don't know that bond really, but there was always a difference in the sound of the heart break . Hard to describe, sick that one can work in a place long enough that there becomes a norm.......

I hope to hear good news this weekend.

Wednesday Apr 21, 2010

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ughh.
well I feel like I'm living on a different planet in some alternate dimension now.
Divorce is filed. Which is bumming me out more than I imagined it would.
Signed up for stupid online dating, friends swore up and down that it would make me feel better (people also swore up and down I'd love twilight) so I guess I should have...
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_solipsist_:

Probably the one thing anyone's said that makes any amount of sense. Thank you. smile

_solipsist_:

Well the wisdom is appreciated.

I'm all about selectivity. Sure it's just the internet, but that doesn't make the interactions less "real" unless you're a chatbot...... (and I do so love a good chat bot conversation!)

I guess to each their own....

Friday Apr 09, 2010

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thinking of moving out to texas. austin. where my friends are. I need to chase my silly dreams, and hunt down a silly boy.
you know that saying, 'home is where the heart is'? it's really true.
_solipsist_:

Do you have a particular silly boy in mind?
wow....you're an adventurous one.

_solipsist_:

Balance has never been my strong suit.....

Friday Apr 02, 2010

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I traveled back in time this last week.
Went over the hills and far away and found my misspent youth.

it was fun. in ways i will never be able to express.

the problem with time travel is that no matter what you do, you fuck up the present. there's no avoiding it. no way to make you miss what you used to be...
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Sunday Mar 07, 2010

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on confusion.

He mentions it to me casually, as he had 1000 times before, and I answer, perhaps more honestly than I ever had. I don't know why the answer changed. Maybe I was playing. Maybe I just wanted to see where it would go.
Maybe I wanted see I could be that girl.
My husband is sleeping with his ex, our marriage is...
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_solipsist_:

You might be handling the situation correctly....... dope and tea.....

_solipsist_:

here's hoping. smile

Thursday Feb 18, 2010

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On Exhilaration.

I spend at least 30 seconds carefully staring, and lightly laying my thumbs on the delicate send button on my phone.
Send. Do not send.
The contents of the message are fairly condemning. A 225k nuclear bomb. Everybody dies...Maybe.
Maybe some things can truly and exclusively exist between two people. Maybe events can fade into the fabric of space and time, no...
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caedo:

heh didnt mean to call you old, just know talking of high school like it was a few years ago (because it was a year ago for me >.<wink sounds young.

caedo:

yeah i'm sure, i'm really afraid of that kind of thing happening :/

Saturday Feb 06, 2010

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My garage is filled stem to stern with antiques. Lamps, magazines, clothing, dishes, art, there's even a huge fucking stained glass window from a church that was bombed in Dresden.
I've been storing in it in there for my parents for almost three years now. I'm in this constant state of mild irritation every time I open the garage door for some...
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Wednesday Feb 03, 2010

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Ughh. I hate February.
I've never gotten the hang of this month. Nothing says "thank god it's only 28 days" like freaky sex dreams about the guy who fired you.
At least I'll be taking some naked pics of a girl much hotter than myself soon.
caedo:

you having freaky sex dreams? O.o
february does kinda suck... something just off about it, plus valentines day tongue
naked pics are always awsome!

Wednesday Jan 27, 2010

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"the rest of that story"
I've lived with the notion that at any moment you would come out of the woodwork, and save me from this awful place. The last ten years I feel like you always been in the next room., that if I could catch up with you our worlds would collide once more.
It's not normal the way I feel...
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_solipsist_:

you know...... I've taken in a few strays over the years....

_solipsist_:

my sense of adventure has waned over the years......

Sunday Jan 24, 2010

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Luigi's Fungarden is neither a garden, or fun. For all intents and purposes it's place where they serve shitty pizza and shitty beer to midtown hipsters with an over grown storage closet for the aforementioned hipsters to play their shitty pseudo punk rock for $5 a head.
It's the sort of place that 10 years ago I would have gone to because...
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_solipsist_:

so what's the rest of that story?

caedo:

yeah the dreams are pretty awsome sometimes! and the sexual increase would be better if i had a girlfriend right now... kinda just have a sex buddy.

it sounds like a place where they go just because they can. I'm really not into those types of places

Wednesday Jan 20, 2010

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*my brain is noodles.

spent 12 hours working on one client today.
performed miracles even.
i'm pretty sure I have permanently damaged my fingertips and right shoulder.
when i sat down just now, it caught up with me just how tired i am. i have typed this whole thing with my left hand.
all pro-bono today. worth it to see her smile.
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caedo:

holy crap... was the driver of the semi not paying attention?? that stuff sounds really painful...

caedo:

sounds like you got a shitty deal :/ shoulda gotten the trucker for all he was worth!