One of my best friends and top 3 favourite people ever is my friend, Graham. I guess you could say it's an odd friendship seeing as he was my science and English teacher in grade 7. I used to fancy myself a writer and he became my mentor. By the time I was in grade 11 we were buds. We meet for massive injections of caffeine 1-4 times a month just to talk and see how each other is doing. Surprisingly to me, it seems that I've always been the one who has picked him up during the rough patches in his life: the death of his best friend, hard times at work, feeling shitty in general...
I am often embarrassed to talk about my own problems even with the closest of my friends because I feel it will place a burden on them and who wants to listen to me whine about my stupid life anyway? I was more honest with Graham today than I have been with anyone in a long time. It was brutally embarrassing but it was the right thing to do. I look up to this person for patience, wisdom, and understanding in their truest forms and that's exactly what I got from him today. I get back from this relationship everything I put in and that's hard to say about most relationships I have. He doesn't read this (because he's 52 and neither he nor his wife have any real interest in the internet) but I feel truly lucky that someone who doesn't use the word lightly calls me his 'friend'.
Today he told me that it doesn't get any easier. That life is full of trivial bullshit and that the way to make it worthwhile is to revel in and hold onto the flashes of beauty that you find amidst the shit. He told me in all seriousness that I was 'too beautiful to give up and go to waste'. I wanted to literally weep with joy. That is probably the greatest thing anyone will ever say to me. I wish other people could see me the way he does.
I am often embarrassed to talk about my own problems even with the closest of my friends because I feel it will place a burden on them and who wants to listen to me whine about my stupid life anyway? I was more honest with Graham today than I have been with anyone in a long time. It was brutally embarrassing but it was the right thing to do. I look up to this person for patience, wisdom, and understanding in their truest forms and that's exactly what I got from him today. I get back from this relationship everything I put in and that's hard to say about most relationships I have. He doesn't read this (because he's 52 and neither he nor his wife have any real interest in the internet) but I feel truly lucky that someone who doesn't use the word lightly calls me his 'friend'.
Today he told me that it doesn't get any easier. That life is full of trivial bullshit and that the way to make it worthwhile is to revel in and hold onto the flashes of beauty that you find amidst the shit. He told me in all seriousness that I was 'too beautiful to give up and go to waste'. I wanted to literally weep with joy. That is probably the greatest thing anyone will ever say to me. I wish other people could see me the way he does.
Sounds like you found someone who knows what he's talking about...the two worst years are ahead of you...the first two years after school suck, and you will find yourself asking the question "what the hell's the point"...after that, the sucking levels out to a numbness...you will find happiness in the small things.