lessthanzer0

so i've realized i'm ready to be the fuck done with school and that is why i can't really get into any of my classes, doubled with a kind of newfound contempt for my fellow students save a few. i think its just being in my third year of school with the same basic group of people, i'm just tired of it. i also think maybe i should have majored in art and done cinema studies as a minor. but i don't regret majoring in film, and its still what i want to do. its just without deadlines i don't make pieces on my own as often as i would like to. don't have the time for one. oh well. i didn't go into an art major because i didn't want people telling me how to make my art, but i think that was just my juvenile outlook on the major. who knows. i'm sure as hell not going for another major though. ew. but also if i had done that, i wouldn't have stumbled into my german minor, which i love. its the only class i care about at the moment. all the film classes are just seeming monotonous. but thats where the good part comes in, i thought i was going to be held up at ucf forever after declaring my german minor this year, but i looked at it, and as long as i don't have any scheduling problems with my classes, i should be able to knock them all out next year, meaning i graduate in spring '08 and will have gotten through in 4 years. which is awsome cuz my scholarships will have run out if i had to do a 5th year. it was figuring that out the other night that made me realize my complete lack of motivation is from me just wanting to get out. and than i'm going to work through that final summer, and as of now i'm going to start doing some hardcore money saving, and than when my lease is up that august, i think i'm out of here. where i will go nobody knows. the end goal is new york city, but i don't think i'll have the money for that by then, so i have no idea where i'll be living in between here and there. i just need something different...

and on another good note, my check engine light went off, so thats one less problem i need to worry about with my car. ^_^