hate losing friends *sighs* ... happens all too often for some of us.
thankfully there's memories - and I can tell you have some good/great ones!
as for the questionable suicide aspect, it just tends to make it feel all the stranger, though life can get the best of all of us sometimes... ( had one particular questionable suicide of a friend years back that turned out to be otherwise - so it's still strange, but... better?
so who knows - if it didn't seem like her to do so, then keep that in your heart and mind )
thankfully there's memories - and I can tell you have some good/great ones!
as for the questionable suicide aspect, it just tends to make it feel all the stranger, though life can get the best of all of us sometimes... ( had one particular questionable suicide of a friend years back that turned out to be otherwise - so it's still strange, but... better?
so who knows - if it didn't seem like her to do so, then keep that in your heart and mind )
*hugs*