lensturtle420

ahh fuck it.

What is wrong with the women I meet? Why can't I meet even one woman who is even slightly interested in me? I'm a nice guy, I have my own money, i have a nice car, I have my own business, I am polite and never start trouble, what more do women want? I'm not that bad looking (ex-girlfriends have proven this), so what is my problem?
The girl i met hasn't contacted me back for 4 days. I have given up, I'm not going to chase her...she can fuck off. Why the fuck would she say we should get together, just to put me off every time i suggest, and then to ignore me? i don't get it.
I am so sick of fucking women who fuck (or rather won't) with me. I am a nice guy, i always do my best to not hurt people, yet I get treated like crap by any women i meet. It is SO easy to see why so many guys end up being woman haters. If I wasn't such a stable person I would be one of them. ALSO NOTE - I am fully aware that many men are complete scumbags, and i can also totally see why so many women hate all men. I want that to be clear!
And i can not figure out why the fuck i had women almost fighting over me in college, but now can't get a woman to look at me twice....very confusing, and again, not fair. I have everything i want in life apart from my health and a woman to love. i know I can't get my health back, but if i can't get a woman then life is truly not worth living. I just have no idea how much longer i am going to have to go on like this. No one should have to endure the loneliness I am going through.
I think part of the problem is the lack of alternative culture where I live. It's all townies and chavs, there is only one place in my local town that has live music, and that place is being closed down.
Sorry to be such a miserable fuck, but it hurts so much to have a girl show an interest in me (first time in years) and then to just completely withdraw that interest.
I thought about going to see a hooker, but i need more than just sex. so I'm not going to.
I spend all my time helping people, but i can't find anyone to help me...

'I am the worlds forgotten boy,
the one who's searching,
searching to destroy'

'please don't leave me to remain
here in the waiting room.'

I'm sorry, i just can't get into a good mood today... my brain isn't working right and won't let me stop thinking of anything than how to meet women. And i still don't have any ideas.....

'I got the devil in me
it's a cloud,
the sadness,
it's a cloud'

sorry. I'll try to be happier next time.



I'll see if mary-Jane can cheer me up...one chick who's always good to me at least....