This whole not drinking lark sucks. I know I am doing it just so I can lose weight, but I really need to just get absolutely wankered. I've realised I am not too good with this little thing called 'life' I know I'm not the only one but it still is cack! I can feel the sad little slide towards depression again, which is one thing I don't want. It then leads to mood swings and the only thing to get rid of them is medication and that wasn't succesful last time as it just levelled me out at a very low point and when I decided to stop taking them and drinking heavily instead then it was a huge mistake.
Why do I feel like I am the friend that people only see when they have nothing else to do? I have heard from no one over the weekend, only Liz has contacted me and that was to ask about Gav!
On the Gav note, something is wrong with him. He is definitely not himself, only heard from him one day this week, and that was when he just turned up at the pub as he hadn't spoke to anyone beforehand... Hmm...
Gotta see her again in the morning. It's getting gradually easier day by day, although I am guessing one day something will happen to just drag me back into it all again.
Why do I feel like I am the friend that people only see when they have nothing else to do? I have heard from no one over the weekend, only Liz has contacted me and that was to ask about Gav!
On the Gav note, something is wrong with him. He is definitely not himself, only heard from him one day this week, and that was when he just turned up at the pub as he hadn't spoke to anyone beforehand... Hmm...
Gotta see her again in the morning. It's getting gradually easier day by day, although I am guessing one day something will happen to just drag me back into it all again.
take care.