lenny007

OK, I have lost all faith in women. I always liked Jacqui at work, I think she's very attractive and very cool. I have always thought that if she wasn't engaged then I would like to go out with her. So we all go out last night from work and just lately I think Jacqui has picked up on the fact that I like her. So she is talking to Carl (who has just split up with his wife) and then they are all over each other. I never actually saw them kiss but I have been informed that they did, but the way they were acting and talking to each other and the way that they were touching each other made it seem like they were actually with each other. And I wasn't the only one who thought this, ao it wasn't just the jealousy thing setting in. So I confronted Carl and told him to pack it in cos she's engaged, she's my friend and we all work together and it's gonna cause hassle. He feigned innocence in all of it, with a smarmy smirk on his fucking face. So I told her and she said "I'm just talking to him, how is anything going on?" And I told her what everyone is saying and she still denied it. We then went to a club and they were still like it, so I told her again that it's pretty obvious what's going on and she should pack it in cos she is engaged. She starts being funny with me (I know she could tell I was jealous too) and so I storm out of the place and go home before I said something I didn't want to or smacked Carl. Then when I got home at 3am I called her to make sure she'd got back OK cos I was supposed to get back with her as she lives in the next street to me, and she said she had got back OK and then she asked why I went off on one and I told her that I thought she was out of order, she said that she doesn't like Carl and that she is happy with her boyfriend and all that kinda stuff. She then confronted me with the fact that I have a 'thing' for her. And it all made it seem like I was over-reacting and maybe Carl just fancies her and that nowt was going on. This was when I was still drunk of course. Now I've sobered up a bit I can't help but think she done this all intentionally. Cos she never wanted to come out with us before, until she started to realise that I liked her, and then she couldn't wait to come out. Then when we are out she's all over the vulnerable bloke who's just split up with his wife so she gets the attention from him with the added bonus of me being insanely jealous. What a ego fuck that must be! Now I had never thought she was that kind of girl cos she doesn't seem it at all. I am now realising why I am single, cos, with the exception of my two best friends, every female I know is a twat. My lack of self esteem seems to mean that they can piss me around and I still allow it, even when I'm not going out with them! When will I meet someone who just doesn't do stuff like that?!?!?!?