leningrad

if anyone wants to keep in contact, please do so now. I may not be long for this particular scene.

the sword of damocles is fallen.

it must be nice to have absolute power. I comment and it vanishes. I speak and I am silenced.

this is not truth. why am I suffering libel without allowance to defend myself?

as a break from all my emo BS

"we are from finland..."

"1 2 3 4
you are not my friend
you are my foe
you are two feet tall
you have got to go!

THIS IS DWARF INVASION

shut up diak

this is not a friend
you are very small
you can barely stand up to me
you can't play basketball

THIS IS DWARF...
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I could fight the fact that my life is changing. I could struggle against this fluctuation and end up breaking like a wave on the shore.

Instead, I'm going with it. I think the best thing to do is to roll with this feeling. So I'm quitting my job and getting out of this town. I've made some really good friends that I'm going to...
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These are tears I won't soon forget.

A revelation. Read this and NEVER FORGET.

Being happy causes suffering. The only way to survive is to reconcile how much suffering you are capable of causing with how happy you need to be.

I have never felt so callous.

Will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs
and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over: I will block the door
like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter
of a tied-game of rivalry

So just say how to make it right
and I swear I'll do my best to comply...
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*sigh* I don't have a journal to write. I just can't stand my last one.

The drama of my personal life is so all-consuming I think I may end up having an aneurysm. So much stress.

Does someone want to decide the course of my life for me, please?

I am a technology whore. I am posting this from my hours old ibook. Another item to add to the pile of things I desired but did not truly need. I am, howver, very happy with.

My life remains in a state of flux, alternately fluid and frightening and stable and solid. I am coming closer to deciding exactly what it is that makes me...
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sometimes nothing makes sense.

promise me the sun will rise again

Sometimes I tire of defending myself.

Edit: I'm feeling in a very aggravated mood and am unable to cope with it. It's really making me angry and shaky and I'm totally on edge. Relaxation is a faint memory.

Urgh.

I'm burning CD's like it was going out of style so that I have something to listen to in bed. I'm finding myself more and more attached to the idea of listening to music as I fall asleep. Strangely, the Locust and Converge do it just as well as Massive Attack and Broken Social Scene. Was I making a point or dropping names?

I am...
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