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Last night we went to Daniel\'s (my fiancee) sisters house and when we were leaving we got a phone call that a guy Daniel works with was killed on his motorcycle. He was weaving in and out of traffic and ran into a slow moving dump truck or somethin like that. I\'ve never been in a situation like that so all i could say was i\'m sorry baby i love you.
Today at lunch Daniel\'s dad took us to eat lunch at a really good chinese restaurant ,Jade YUMMY. then he asked no class today or what? andit was like this sinking feeling in my stomache. How do i tell him i decided to take the rest of the semester off because i was unhappy. I didn\'t want that look of dissapointment ya know. So daniel told him and he still gave me that look. and i just felt like shit and i wanted to cry. Did i make the right decision? It was something i felt i had to do so i did. I finally did something for myself but then why do i feel so bad?
So this will be my first Thanksgiving away from my family. I\'m acctually um i guess happy. its weird but its also like i finally have my own life. yaya! i guess thats it haha my mind is racing but i don\'t think i could type it all