lemona

It's been a while that I've posted a blog entry, so I thought why not type one now that I'm bored and can't get any sleep! :p A few things happened in my life since my last blog. For example, I got fired 1 week and a half ago. Yay! Yes, yay. I hated my job, so my boss was actually doing me a favor by firing me. At least now I'll be more motivated to find another better job! I also decided to end a friendship. It's not something I like to do, but I guess even the most patient person out there has limits... My friend (or ex-friend) just went too far. Even if I'm the type of person that looks calm but could explode in anger at any moment, I always try to control myself, and most of the time I handle it pretty well (well, maybe only with the people I love and care). But this time, I just couldn't take it anymore. Why should I stay friends with someone who constantly tries to put me down? Why should I be friends with someone that has some kind of crush on me and always tries to talk shit about the people I date? He showed up at my place so we could have a few beers and talk like buddies. Then at some point he got way too drunk and missed the last metro. So I let him stay for a bit until the metro opens again. The metro opens at 5 a.m., it was 6:30 a.m. So I asked him to leave, since he was lying on my bed and I really needed to get some sleep. Mister didn't want to, so I told him that I haven't slept all night and that I only have one bed and I need to sleep. I ended up kicking him out of my apartment not only because of that but also because he was being an asswhole during our entire conversation. Because I don't like to end things badly with my friends, I decided to apologize to him the next day. But I haven't spoken to him ever since then, and I don't think I ever will... I just think that keeping him as a friend will just make me feel uncomfortable. I know that he has a crush on me but I am really NOT attracted to him in any ways. And the fact that he's attracted to me really digusts me, to be totally honest.

I'm moving out of my current apartment at the end of May. To go where? To come back to my parents' place... I don't really have a choice. I'm financially unstable right now, so my only option is to go back living with them. It is only temporary though but still... We've never had a good relationship. I actually left my parents' place because of our endless arguments. Otherwise I wouldn't have mind staying even if I'm 20 and need to be more of a responsible and independant person... It's scary to come back. I know my parents. They will never change. I'm 100% sure the same things will happen but staying at my friends' isn't something I want to do anymore. So, we'll see how long we'll be able to stand each other this time!

I saved the best part for the end! I also met this awesome cutie... I think I started falling for him on the first day (night) we met. He's amazing.