At the moment, I am overwhelmed by how fragile life is.
So many young people, literally in the prime of their lives dying or having near-death experiences...
The funny thing is, for the last year I've been composing a list of all the things I wanted to do by the time I turned 30, and then with the disposable income that comes with being in my 30s. Right now all of those things seem completely meaningless. Travelling the world, running a marathon, reading all the books I've been meaning to read... all completely meaningless in isolation. They're just stuff to do.
I just spent the evening with a group of friends I have neglected over the last couple of years and my life felt more fulfilled for the last 5 hours than it has done in months.
We are designed to live in community. I am an introvert and I enjoy time to myself to reflect, but I'm starting to see how my life is directionless and void without interaction with other people.
I've been reminded of how the greatest moments in life are those you share- both the highs and the lows- and how the things I achieve will be nothing compared with the things I've shared with others.
I know a number of people on here have been going through rough times recently, but this isn't directed at anyone at all- I'm writing purely about what I've been through in the last few weeks, but I hope that something here makes sense to anyone reading this.
However, to all of you that I have spoken to- on here or in person- I want to thank you for the experiences we've shared, both good and bad. They have enriched my life and made it- in some measure- worth while. I hope that your lives don't go unfulfilled or cut short, but that you live long, meaningful existences, in whatever manner you may find that.
It's easy to get caught up in clichs, at times like these, but perhaps those clichs only make sense in these moments. "Carpe diem" always seemed like the motto of the selfish to me- an excuse to do whatever you want- but I can see now how tomorrow is my next chance to tell someone how much they mean to me and be someone significant in their lives.
So many young people, literally in the prime of their lives dying or having near-death experiences...
The funny thing is, for the last year I've been composing a list of all the things I wanted to do by the time I turned 30, and then with the disposable income that comes with being in my 30s. Right now all of those things seem completely meaningless. Travelling the world, running a marathon, reading all the books I've been meaning to read... all completely meaningless in isolation. They're just stuff to do.
I just spent the evening with a group of friends I have neglected over the last couple of years and my life felt more fulfilled for the last 5 hours than it has done in months.
We are designed to live in community. I am an introvert and I enjoy time to myself to reflect, but I'm starting to see how my life is directionless and void without interaction with other people.
I've been reminded of how the greatest moments in life are those you share- both the highs and the lows- and how the things I achieve will be nothing compared with the things I've shared with others.
I know a number of people on here have been going through rough times recently, but this isn't directed at anyone at all- I'm writing purely about what I've been through in the last few weeks, but I hope that something here makes sense to anyone reading this.
However, to all of you that I have spoken to- on here or in person- I want to thank you for the experiences we've shared, both good and bad. They have enriched my life and made it- in some measure- worth while. I hope that your lives don't go unfulfilled or cut short, but that you live long, meaningful existences, in whatever manner you may find that.
It's easy to get caught up in clichs, at times like these, but perhaps those clichs only make sense in these moments. "Carpe diem" always seemed like the motto of the selfish to me- an excuse to do whatever you want- but I can see now how tomorrow is my next chance to tell someone how much they mean to me and be someone significant in their lives.
I have introvert tendancies in that I am far better with people that I know socially, although professionally I have no problem at all.