I got to see Brucey the other day for the first time in over two months. I know he's not biologically my son but I love him like he was. Carolyn said that all he talked about yesterday was me and kept asking when he was going to see me again. I miss both of them terribly, I don't know whether or not she and I will ever reconcile and get back together but I know that I want them both to stay in my life somehow.
yeah, we split up in the end of January. It was pretty ugly, she's a recovering addict and I'm bipolar, her relapse aggravated my already developing depressive break and out fights got more often and verbally abusive on both sides. She's been clean for about three months and I'm back on medication and we're speaking just neither of us is in the position to do more than be there for the other as moral support. Poor Brucey is only five so he doesn't understand why we're not together sadly for him his father helped caused the problems in a convoluted attempt to get her back and then bailed completely when everything fell apart and she didn't crawl back to him.