lecia

March will be here in the blink of an eye.....As a few of you know, March is a very hard month for me. I'm a complete basket case in the month of March, every year. It's a completely fucked up month. My mom died March 1, 1999, my nephews b-day is March 2, my nieces b-day is March 3 and so is my grandpa John's who died when I was 13, my step-daddy died March 19, 2001, and Eric's (MetalEric) b-day is March 20. I can hardly ever get to the cemetary & it makes things worse. So, please don't bother me too much during this month. And I'm sorry if I don't speak to anyone too much....I just need to be alone & cry all month. I more than likely won't be updating this journal until March is over. Please don't give me your "I'm sorry's" or your sympathy...It's not needed or wanted! I'm just so lost during this month....So many happy occassions & so many devastating ones, I don't know what to do or how to feel.

TRIBUTE

This is THE only song that pretty much explains exactly how I feel about my mommy & step-daddy's deaths.

OFFSPRING....."GONE AWAY"

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair

And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away

Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would

And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away

RIP Mommy & Ken! I love & miss you both more then words could ever say!
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