leavesofdestiny

ok, brace urselfs for a very frustrated rant... well first, i'm glad it's the last technical week of skool for the semester, being finals week and all, even tho i'm at home for the middle of the week, which has been really nice, but ya, now for the rant

FUCK!!! that felt good, hehe, sorri, just very frustrated at the moment, it's one of those times that no matter how hard you try, nothing seems to work out right, my one huge desire in this life is to do something creativly... but it just WON'T happen... and i know you "can't try" for things like that to happen, but for me it's weird like that, cuz i'm really good at lots of creative things... but i'm like butter spread over too much bread... i'm good at lots, but NEVER good enough to get anything done... i can see art in my head but can never get it onto paper, i can see emotions that i want to turn into song, but it never flows, poetry is the only thing creativly that i excel at without trying, and it's the one thing i think about the least... all of this is very whiney but i just need to let it out, cuz GOD this is so frustrating... i wanna be an artist, and a punk rawker, and just lots of things, and i can't do a single one...