I have totally noticed that I usually have nothing to say in my blogs.
Just random crap.
For once that is not the case.
I visited my grandmother this past weekend, and it was nice to see her, but it was not all happy times.
I noticed signs of alzheimers setting in, not major yet, but slight.
She thought my mother was turning 50, she just turned 60.
She also thought my birthday was one day after what it really is.
Lately my thoughts have been mostly focused on my mortality, so seeing that did not help much at all.
I really am in a unhappy state, every hour, of every day.
At work it is all fake smiles.
When I go to the bar it is not fun, which sucks cause it totally should be.
Receiving this shirt that I paid for at least 6 months ago only mildly lifted my spirits.
Something needs to happen quick to cheer me up.
Just random crap.
For once that is not the case.
I visited my grandmother this past weekend, and it was nice to see her, but it was not all happy times.
I noticed signs of alzheimers setting in, not major yet, but slight.
She thought my mother was turning 50, she just turned 60.
She also thought my birthday was one day after what it really is.
Lately my thoughts have been mostly focused on my mortality, so seeing that did not help much at all.
I really am in a unhappy state, every hour, of every day.
At work it is all fake smiles.
When I go to the bar it is not fun, which sucks cause it totally should be.
Receiving this shirt that I paid for at least 6 months ago only mildly lifted my spirits.
Something needs to happen quick to cheer me up.
Often times I say lots of nothing in my journal entries too. I try to be entertaining though. I think most of the time it doesn't work.