(this is something that i posted on my myspace profile....)
i found something. somewhere.
it was transmitted through wire and formed into images.
and words.
it's a new form of comfort. it's a new form of hope. it's a new form of something other than what has eaten away at me for months.
it's what i would like to think as possible. as all things are possible. perhaps meant to be. perhaps a schoolgirl's fantasy.
but, it's that something that i like to take home. it's that something that i would like to believe in. at least for now. at least for tonight, and tomorrow.
so, i found something, and it's mine. so, please, don't take it from me because i can't take another stolen comfort.
i found something. somewhere.
it was transmitted through wire and formed into images.
and words.
it's a new form of comfort. it's a new form of hope. it's a new form of something other than what has eaten away at me for months.
it's what i would like to think as possible. as all things are possible. perhaps meant to be. perhaps a schoolgirl's fantasy.
but, it's that something that i like to take home. it's that something that i would like to believe in. at least for now. at least for tonight, and tomorrow.
so, i found something, and it's mine. so, please, don't take it from me because i can't take another stolen comfort.
and i found myself like that last week....
and now i cant breathe when i think of it.
and i cant sleep.
nor do i want to......
because there's a pain, an aggravation brewing inside, that makes me hate this life i have chosen.
it takes away every little happiness- from the slightest smile to the tear jerking laughter.
and i want it back. right now. this instance. this very second.
but all i have is this stupid blog with strangers reading it....in hopes that i might find comfort some where out there............
Current mood: devious
this is what i am over.....
i'm over not understanding what's misunderstood.
i'm over losing sleep over it.
i'm over confusing my own thoughts with someone else's idea.
i'm over you.
i'm over not being in the know.
i'm over the sick game you decided to play.
i'm over not really being over you.
i'm over the fact that i really let you bother me.
i'm over the fact that i was behind you yesterday walking in the same direction, and I didn't even confront you.
i'm over the little temptations i seem to find in every person i meet.
i'm over believing "the grass is greener on the other side."
i'm over wishing upon a little star.
i'm over wondering why.
i'm just over it all.
besides, i meant it when i said that i whisper because i think i'm better than everyone......
that included you.