so i've had a pretty fuck'd up year so far...i lost my father to the void months before he was going to move back home after fifteen years of livin in california...my mother has 2 foster kids that are blood relatives who i love more than anything in the world and just thinkin about them being in the system and possibly losing them to another family chokes me up...i flipped out and quit my incredibly shitty job and shorty after decided to move to austin texas and live on my buddies couch for a little while...is this too much? should i lay low for a little while and deal with my dads death...which has only been a couple of months now...i don't know i'm a bit nervous i haven't lived so far away from my family ever...so it should be an experience...a good one i hope...shit the worst that can happen is that i blow all my savings i guess...or dwindle back in to a set of habits that will fuck with me i.:e drugs but i think i got a hold on that shit...a few days till i leave and continue this strange transient dream
