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i don't understand why i get so stressed out so easily. i stress about stuff so much that i make myself sick. my stomach hurts real bad and if it lasts for a few days then i become physically ill. tonights stress is over soccer. i play soccer and have played for the last thirteen years. i have played on a traveling team for the last three years and i love playing with the girls i play with. right now we are on a break so we aren't playing right now. i just heard that there is a new team being formed and they are trying to steal some of our players . i found out that some former players (really good players) are going to be on this team. so no big deal right? well that's what my brain keeps telling me but i still feel stressed out and really anxious. i don't know what my deal is but ever so often this is how i get about the smallest things. i feel stupid even posting this but this is the oone and only place i feel like i can be my true self. in my non sg life i'm the one everyone comes to for advice and it is almost like i can't need help cuz everyone always needs me to have it together. on here i can ask for help and let my insecurities out without any problems. see i feel a tad bit better for even getting this off my chest.

wow last posting was about how fat i'm getting tonight it's about my lack of ability to control my stress...lets just chalk that up to being a silly girl. ok so enough venting i'm excited for tommorrow i get to meet koala if you guys haven't checked out her profile you should and say hello she's one of the coolest chics on here on sat. i will be attending my first bar mitzvah and then later that night some of my girls from the soccer team are throwing a pimps and ho's party...and i will def. be dressing up as a ho...fo' sho'