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This is a PART 2 from my last blog PLEASE go back and read that one before this and give advice.

Things I have to do to Better Myself for us.

Study for the postal exam more.
Get a better job (or second job)
Be more open and honest with my wife and not hide anything
Stop being so lazy, have some ambition and want a better life
Help more even with the little things around the house.
Don't fear conflicts so much, understand it's a part of a marriage.
Stop settling for this life, want more, this is not what we want or need.
Think about the future; realize that we have to be ready for that now.
Realize that this is not going to end, she loves you and you have to stop making her feel like you don't love her, step up and be the man you have to be.
Don't be afraid to fight back, stand up for yourself, when you yell back she will not think you don't love her anymore, she will respect you more.
Do what you have to do to assure that you will not continue in this circle that we are living in.
If you want something go after it, don't wait for anything to come to you.
You made a promise that you meant, so make it come to be; figure out what is stopping you from being a partner in this marriage.
Re-build trust, respect, and everything else that has been torn down with both her and her family.
There is no reason to fear this ending, unless you don't fix it, and if it would end you have to be prepared to take the blame.