lavynia

So, I really really need to make new friends. Since I have moved here my friends seem to be not liking me so much. They don't ever call or talk to me, if I want to talk to them I have to get in touch, which is all good and fine but after a while it makes me wonder. I mean we have all been the best of friends for over five years and have been through the hardest times in our lives together, but now if I don't talk to them or call them we wouldn't ever talk.

And it seems with one of them, my very best friend, she is never happy to talk to me. She is always grumpy and says kinda mean things. And she goes out of her way in her LJ and stuff to make a point of how she misses our other friends who moved away but she never says anything about me. Maybe this is all silly but it is hard and kinda hurts that they act this way because here I don't know anybody and I sadly spend all my time alone and I like to talk to them. I know she hates the idea of me having fun with other people while she is in shithole idaho but still maybe I wouldn't feel so lonely and miserable about it if I had people to talk to and hangout with.

It all makes me sad. I am so horrible at meeting people. I am a bit shy. I'm a hermit! I mean that's ok sometimes, but I need to get out!!!