I am so so so heavy hearted. This Thanksgiving I found out one of my oldest friends and most genuine supporters went missing on Tuesday. I hadn't seen her in years, since sophmoore year of high school actually, because she was always traveling and living in a new city. However, she sort of took me under her wing and was one of the first empowered strong women I had ever encountered (coming from a small family with not the best women as role models, she was so rare to me). She taught me so much about being myself and being confident. I'll never forget the freeing feeling she would bring to each room. I always admired her deeply and thought she was one of the most beautiful women I've ever met.
Over the years she always would reach out to me to support my modeling and support me when I had no one understanding to turn to with my mental disorders. She suffered in the same sense as I. She lived so passionately and vibrantly in everything she did. I always looked to her for strength, but on Wednesday she was found dead. I found out through facebook of all ways, yesterday, while I was in class. I couldn't believe that this amazing woman who I had so much appreciation left to show and had planned on seeing again this year, was hurting so bad, decided to hitch hike alone with a gun, and went through with committing suicide. I am so sorry this life has ended so soon. Many condolences to her beautiful family. Especially her supportive father and sweet as pie sister and brother. I'm feeling much sadness today as I try to remember what she taught me and the amazing memories she gave me rather than dwell on how she was hurting. I will remember her life everyday.
To the most beautiful, free bird I've ever met, please rest in peace, Nickel C'Ann Bird, you have forever impacted and lit up my life <3
