Well I'd like to think my life is pretty special. And my voice is just on the edge of being heard. My face is just on the verge of being known.
I'm most likely moving to Denver this winter because I've found myself in NY and realized I don't belong here. I've lived here most of my life not including the 4 years and than 1 year I spent living in PA. Really, the more I've traveled along the east coast the past two years for modeling and parkour events I've just come to the conclusion that these are not my people. Most of my good friends don't even live anywhere near me or NY state so it influences me more and more to move away to flourish in an artistic community where I'm free to be me amongst "my people". I do hope to find my people when exploring the west.
Anyway, I just really wanted to get that out there. I know I have been super fickle and scattered with my contributions and voice on suicidegirls but that's only because I had fallen deeper into my depression and self destruction this year more than I ever thought I could fall. It's been hextra difficult dealing with my depression, bi polar episodes, anxiety, and sleep paralysis (which I just found out I've been struggling with since I was a child)
Ultimately, I think living alone in NY as opposed to living with my family or boyfriend like before, has really helped me understand myself, my skills, and my purpose. My purpose for living or myself is an ongoing experiment and I do hope to start sharing my life with ya'll again as I plan to release at least 1-3 sets within the next year.
I hope old members are excited to have me back and I hope new members are just as welcoming. Feel free to check out some of my favorite sets like:
"Out of the Blue"
&
"Compulsion"
Suggestions for what you'd like to see in my next set? And what's you're favorite thing to read/view on SG now that is has flourished so lovely since the web re-launch? I would love to start putting out weekly content that I can link to my blog on freaksemporium.com
Feel free to suggest away!
I will be going to the SG burlesque show tonight in Williamsburg, Brookly. NY members should definitely come to the show and say hi!
Have a lovely Monday and rad rest of your week lovelies. <3
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-Lavish <3
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chvrch:
I have been feeling similar lately, being an east-coaster my whole life I am becoming more aware you my artistic inner self. I am planning to move to steamboat springs in a little over a year and a half! You couldn't be more right that there's a differnet breed of human out west. I'm excited to see what you have in store for us all! đź’‹đź’‹đź’‹
lavish_:
It's always comforting to hear such genuine words. From such lovely ladies, I do know you speak the truth. I appreciate your support <3 thanks so much! @raimei @chvrch and i do hope to keep in touch on all of our soul searching journeys. We're growing wonderfully