Let's Catch Up! by Lavish_

SO. I said I’d come back. Here I am!

Definitely feel like a slightly different person than I was about 6 months ago. It’s hard to explain, but I’m sure you know how crazy life experiences can quickly change the path of your life or change the way you live your life.

I struggled with some personal issues which greatly affected my self confidence both mentally and psychically. And to be honest I’m still struggling, but I think I finally over came all of the breakdowns and weeks of depression. Now, I’m moving on in my life. Taking things day by day because things have gotten weird and I have no choice, but to find ways to get through.

I’m hoping to start shooting some new material for SG, editorials, and online mags within the next few months. I had to take a break from my creative hobbies, including my accessory shop because of school. However, my life has taken a turn that is both difficult and unexpected, and while it may be mostly shitty, I’m hoping this gives me another opportunity to start fresh, experience new things, and learn from my mistakes. I have been living with my boyfriend in an apartment connected to his parents house for about a year now. Fortunately for him and unfortunately for me, he is going to school in Denmark in less than two months. Now I have to decide if I want to dorm with my school, get my own apartment with financial help the first few months, or stay at his parents house. It’s a gigantic decision. I’m also failing 3 of my classes this semester when I already dropped two because of the workload. At this point of my life I’m not feeling very accomplished or successful and I’m feeling pretty lonely and scared about the future, but now I’m just so determined to find my passion again that I just can’t give up. This is silly to some, but for me it’s a major turning point. I have been living with my boyfriend for pretty much the entire almost 3 years of our relationship. We never spent more than maybe 5 days a part if that and now he’s moving to a completely different country for 6 months while my life is a mess. When I first realized the situation I was in, I felt like I coudn’t move. Literally. Like I had no options. After a week of breakdowns I was able to get some clarity and I realized that this is finally my time and this is exactly what mind and spirit need more than anything at this point in my life. A chance to find myself again, to gain strength, and new knowledge. So that’s the way I’m looking at it now.

I’ve realized the things I need to make part of my life most are intelligent chilled out friends, daily psychical expression, and more risk taking! I’ve spent far too much time alone and now is the time I change that a bit so I can learn to live with people. You ever sit there and analyze who you are as much as I do? Because I feel crazy.

Anyway, I’m sorry if that was a bunch of sad boring stuff that doesn’t interest you, but sometimes I feel the need to do that. Some good things have happened as well. Fun things. Happy things. Sexy things.

As I said before I have a new set coming out in about 4 months shot by @milloux The set is simply titled “Out of the Blue” I will explain more about this set as the member release date approaches. I also have some fun work with my pal CHRIS M DAY coming out soon. He was the last photographer to shoot me with my blue locks! Other than that the last awesome things I’ve experienced recently were Comic Con, the SG burlesque show, and traveling for Parkour.

Comic con was rad as hell! I had so much fun this year. Me and my guy went together of course, with 2 day passes, since all other passes were sold out. We managed to use our time wisely. I cosplayed with @lua and a bunch of her babely cosplay friends as part of this fanart of Sailor Moon by artist Bab Starr. AKA Sailor Moon Bosozoku Sailor Scouts! It was a fun time walking around, taking photos, meeting the Bab Starr, and doing cosplayer things. ^.^ I also bought some awesome artwork and lots of Chinese vegan food after. SO GOOD. The second day we went I cosplayed as Misa Amane from Death Note. Not many people recognized me which was nice because I don’t really enjoy attention haha, but when I was stopped people were very complimentary. I also bought more from the comic series I enjoy, Z-Girl, and got a mini plush Ryuk, also from Death Note.

Moving on to the SG Burlesque show! I was so stoked for the show because I had never been before and it took place on Halloween. The show was bad ass as fuck! So much sex appeal and talent from the gorgeous ladies. It was exactly what I needed to feel inspired again. It was so nice that I got to be VIP standing right next to the stage with my favorite hopefuls and SG’s. @johnnyrogue was nice enough to join me. I love her to pieces! Dancing on stage, hugs from babes, whiskey thrown at my face, free merch, meeting fans, it was a night I definitely needed. I can’t thank everyone enough! The night was special.

Well now that this blog has become extremely long. I’ll ask you one last thing. What do you want to see from me next? Ask me some random questions and I’ll answer them in my next blog! Also dancing videos coming soon!

End with a photo dump.