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Starting to feel a bit hopeless on this journey to becoming an SG. It's not the only thing I want in life. Some of you may know that I have other goals to achieve. I want to do something with fashion, retail, or cosmetics and eventually open my own store. I'm going to school for fashion merchandising so hopefully that isn't too hard. As far as modeling goes I've had this dream since I was a tween in middle school. I'd like to give you the whole story right now. :

At 12 years old I finally decided that I was tired of being a tom boy because no one accepted me. I started to really get into fashion, editorial, couture, the works. For years fashion was my life. But I could never fully supress that part of me that was boyish, athletic, "weird", into weird music and weird fashions. I struggled with it through out high school while keeping up with my fashion obssession. Studying the industry, watching local fashion shows, attending couture shows, studying magazines, surfing the internet and watching every model or styling show that possibly aired on tv. I didn;t have many friends in high school which was fine with me. I was always a loner. I enjoyed staying home studying in my room or cutting up editorial magazines and placing them all over my room listening to my favorites at the time being; Led Zeppelin, Korn, System of a Down, Avenged Sevenfold, Escape the Fate, Asking Alexandria. Bla bla ( I had my scene girl years like most of you) But I wanted to be a runway model for so long practicing my walk constantly (which if I do say so myself is actually pretty fierce) When I decided to join my first agency which was basiclally super commercial and a rip off I realized that with my height and my plans for tattoos and piercings that I wouldn't be able to book any jobs in the high fashion industry. SO that's when I finally decided to transition into the alternative modeling industry. At the time never really thought of nude modeling before, but I never had a problem with it. I've never had much a care who saw me in my underwear and as I got older I just didn't even care who saw me naked either. Females all have this body it's nothing new and I never saw it as something that should be hidden from the world. When I finally decided to pursue becoming an SG it was mostly to fulfill my modeling dreams, be a part of a community where I could make friends with girls I actually could get along with, and finally accept my body for what it is and show other females with my body type that you should love yourself. And with all this I knew that even attempting to be an SG would open a ton of doors for me in other areas of the alternative modeling industry. SO ultimately that's my main goal now. To do a ton of creative photo shoots from fashion to nude and everything in between.

Now, with all that being said Its been a massive struggle for me lately. I feel like I'm not progressing as much as I was before and I'm getting more work done, thats what is the most discouraging. I'm not giving up that's for sure, but I feel like I hit a stand still with my support system. I hope I can network more and make not only new business partners, but friends! I guess really for now I just have to be patient.

I hope you guys are doing good! I think I may start blogging like this more often. I have a lot in this head of mine.

I'll leave you with this photo from my new zivity set "Natural Bliss" going live sometime this week.


Thanks for listening lovelies.

Lavish xoxo