So... life... What is the point in the long run? we are all suppose to have our purposes right? Well at what point in time do you expect to find youself over content? Do you ever? And when you think you do? Is it all just inner false hope that we surpress to keep waking up every morning? I woke up today. Even though I would rather lay her and sulk in my stupidity of fallin in love.. Don't get me wrong.. I believe love truly does exsist for everyone, I just think that most of it is forced to make everyone feel like they have meaning. I personally... I fall hard. And I actually took my time to express my feeling for the first time in a long time. Reminding myself that if you go this way it can last and be pure and real and that feeling of no regrets. Everything going perfect! EVERYTHING! Great times, communication, sex! Everything! And out of nowhere it is as if I do not exsist?! No love you, no xo's nothing. Just excuse after excuse why he can't talk or visit or me visit him? Talk about confusion?~! So like any one else I ? what is happening... No explanations, no facts, no sorry, no love you, no xo's. NO RESPONSE WHAT SO EVER! I guess my mind refuses to see the obvious in it all. He's either with someone else, or his mom got in his head, or... Just plain can't handle a girl that has good sex! lol.. I don't know... I just wish he would sweep me off my feet, or at least tell me that I'm right and give me a chance to tell him how big of an ass he is... I am sure no one really has a desire to hear me rant about some stupid guy. But I'm lost and have no Idea what to say or do. I hope everyone is doing well though! And I will be putting a new set up in a few weeks.
Luv,
Lavarain!
Luv,
Lavarain!
This post is a month old.....hopefully you're done sulking.
Which Weis books are your favorites? mine were Autumn twilight, and Stormblade, though it has been a long time since I read them.