I wasn't sure to post this as I've always thought that people enjoy spending time on SuicideGirls not only to admire beautiful photos of beautiful girls, but especially to forget about stress, pain and everyday ugliness - and I do not want to sadden anyone. But then I remembered how - on the other hand - I've been showed many times how this community deeply cares for their members, their shared thoughts, their mental health.
Last week my 14 years old lady Zelda has walked the rainbow bridge. I've been told 14 years are a lot for a french bulldog but I wasn't ready anyway.
I've always been a cat person but this dog really taught me what unconditional love and loyalty are
Although she was a purebred dog, we took her from a shelter at 4-5 years of age, as she came from an abusive farm put under sequestration. There her task was to churn out puppies, which were regularly taken away too soon - can't imagine her pain! When she arrived at home she wouldn't be able to walk on stairs as she used to be forced to just stay in a very small cage and never take walks. Then we make her used to good food, soft pillow where to sleep all day, colorful balls to play with, even cats' company đź–¤ She was so loved throughout these last 9 years!
This whole last year she started to have so many health issues - but she didn't care, as long as we were at her side: she always came out of the clinic ready to play like "mom, dad, I'm fine now - where's my ball?". Until that last time, where I could read pain and exhaustion on her pretty face: she was ready and wanted us to bring her to her last walk.
It was devastating both for me and for my boyfriend. It was the first time for me and his first time with this new family we created together, but facing this shit together definitely brought us even closer.
I still find myself crying and thinking about her. I'm afraid to ask you if this ever stops as I don't think it does - you just come to terms with the pain.
So, here's just some words to say goodbye to my lovely Zelda, and keep her memory alive here too đź–¤
I have never minimized the pain of those who lose their pets, now that I've experienced it I'm even more emphatic with that. I do hope you all going through something like this find a way to remember and honor the memory of your loved ones đź–¤
