Hey folks!
This time I let too much time pass since the last post 🙀 my bad!
But to be honest, I can't say my life has changed that much since last time we talked - you know, lots of work work work and a loooong countdown to holidays!
I've spent a week with the dude in the Conero area, a place on the East coast of Italy, where Mount Conero meets the Adriatic see. It's very quiet and really beautiful, with small beaches of white rocks.
Tried my best to tan just a lil', but - as you can notice - my bum has been staying pale as the full moon!
This place isn't that far from where I live - it took us less than 3 hours driving to get there, but it surely looked like something so exotic and magic. It was incredible to discover this beautiful region so close and yet still so wild!
Blame it on getting older, consider it as this pandemic's legacy, but I'm starting to enjoy quiet and little frequented places: I've discovered myself avoiding bars and crowds, trying to reach the most remote spot on the beach. Just me, my boyfriend and a book.
It hasn't been an easy year for me: as I've told you in my previous post, I've had issues both at work and in my relationship, I've had the chance to seek and find help from a very good therapist - we did a good job together and I think I've almost regained my balance, but I still needed these holidays like fresh air!
After spending a week at the seaside, we reached a group of friends in the Aosta Valley on the Alps. No need to say how much I loved going back on the mountains, trekking, hiking and rock climbing! I event went rafting on a river and had the time of my life.
This has definitely been the year of my return to the mountains: I used to spend weeks there with my family when I was a teenager, but once I had the chance to go on holidays on my own, I've always preferred visiting cities and e enjoying the sea.
Now I'm finding myself more and more fascinated by the great heights, the landscapes, the light of the mountains - also, I'm learning how to climb and I'm getting more and more involved with it.
Rock climbing is more than a new sport to try, it's more than a nice way to spend time outdoor - rock climbing is a way to connect back with my family after years of closed doors, unspoken words, stupid fights. My dad has been a mountaineer his whole life and my brother has started rock climbing years ago, getting very good at it.
Getting myself on those rocks is helping me getting closer to them after years when all I did was building walls - now it's time to climb 'em and get back together :)
In case you're wondering, I haven't quitted pole dancing! I'm still practicing at home and I'll be back at the gym in few weeks. Actually, I've found out that my artistic gym background and my pole dancing training are so very helpful with climbing too. When people notice how gracefully yet strong I can move on walls, I feel so thrilled and excited haha 🙆
On different news, I've been following the whole Onlyfans affair and I was - and still am - a bit worried.
As many of you know, I do have an Onlyfans page full of explicit nudes and even a bit more "hardcore" stuff as lately I was feeling in the mood of exploring this side of myself 😊
This adventure started back in late February 2020 when the Pandemic started to force people to stay home and I obviously had to give up modeling & performing gigs since clubs were shut down and staying home was the only thing we all could do. I was lucky enough to gain the trust of some of you who subscribed from the very beginning, when I was clueless about the kind of stuff to post and publish. From then on, I've worked my ass off to keep everyone engaged and happy, to deliver quality contents - both professional and self-taken and keep up with new requests and new offers.
Getting to know from the tabloids' pages that the site was about to ban what made it rich and famous was a bit shocking... I felt let down as a person and as a sex worker, I felt a bit lost but then I was like "Fuck this shit! I'm modeling since I was 18, I'm a Sucide Girl, I'm working with lots of fetish producer and starting to get appreciated for that kind of works too. I'm a good dancer and a good show girl... no changes on any platform would scare me!" ✨
They changed their mind as soon as they noticed how many top creators was leaving the boat, hurting their pockets. As said, I don't feel safe as I don't trust a company "changing his mind" on such a serious topic within 48 hours from an announcement made through the gossip sections of newspapers rather than through an official communication to all the creators.
I'm looking out for another route change in the near future, as I fail to see how they could have made up for the issues they were having with the banks and all in such little timing.
But until I'll find something that truly satisfy my working conditions, I'm gonna stick to Onlyfans. And if you want to support me in these uncertain times, you can join my page here: onlyfans.com/brokendollhatesyou
Well, I'll do my best to update you more often.
Feel free to tell me how are you spending this summer and how are you enjoying yourself + your thoughts on all the Onlyfans fuss as well!
xoxo
Lauretta
