'evening, people!
Or should I say "night"? 'Cause here in Italy it's midnight. And I'm already at home! I was talking of this with my make-up artist today, on our way to the shooting: since few months ago, my will to party and get wasted has got lost somewhere.
Yup. No more chemical drugs since... last may?! My beloved MDMA and amphetamines in general, ketamine... LSD... coke... it was less and less fun, seems I'm not interested in those things anymore.
To be completely honest, I have to thank my boyfriend for this change: he's an all-natural guy, just weed and alcol (breaking news: it seems that he'll have to say "bye bye" to his driving licence for a year due to this
), and he told me he didn't like to see me messing up with heavier drugs.
Whatever, I'm a lot cleaner now.
Even heavy drinking is something I'm near to quit... wait, that's impossible XD but I'm limiting myself a lot, and I don't find it particularly difficult. Good thing, right?
And parties... oh well, parties are fun and I've always been a very active party-girl. But lately I enjoy way more a dinner with my friends, going out for some sushi, drinking a bottle of wine at home with my boy while watching a movie - yes, one of those movies you'll never get to see the end
Have you ever felt like you were changing? Like passing from a phase into another?
I'm going to turn 23 in a month and I think I'm finally growing up.
Grow up - that's what is happening and that's what I need to pursue.
Today I've found myself getting lost in stupid little paranoia about my guy and my relationship :|
I've started to think how many times he used to dedicate me songs or make me small surprises in the first months of our relationship. Now things are naturally changed - evolved - and our love story has grown up as it needed to be in order to be healthy, which doesn't mean we have less sex or we are less passionate... we are just... more into a "routine", and not in a bad way.
The one speaking now it's my rational side. I've a childish side too, the one that last night and today has made me think of bad things like the fact that his more casual and relaxed behavior could show that he's starting to take me for granted.
Rationally speaking, again, I'm sure this is not happening: he's still the one preparing yummy foods for me, taking care of me even after a fight, cuddling me to sleep and teasing me in the morning when I wake up...
So well, definitely the pursuit for acting like "a grown-up woman" is still something I'm at. On many fronts.
But now let's talk about less serious themes.
Next week I'll be in MR once again... October 4th.
Did you miss my itty-bitties?!
Or should I say "night"? 'Cause here in Italy it's midnight. And I'm already at home! I was talking of this with my make-up artist today, on our way to the shooting: since few months ago, my will to party and get wasted has got lost somewhere.
Yup. No more chemical drugs since... last may?! My beloved MDMA and amphetamines in general, ketamine... LSD... coke... it was less and less fun, seems I'm not interested in those things anymore.
To be completely honest, I have to thank my boyfriend for this change: he's an all-natural guy, just weed and alcol (breaking news: it seems that he'll have to say "bye bye" to his driving licence for a year due to this
), and he told me he didn't like to see me messing up with heavier drugs.
Whatever, I'm a lot cleaner now.
Even heavy drinking is something I'm near to quit... wait, that's impossible XD but I'm limiting myself a lot, and I don't find it particularly difficult. Good thing, right?
And parties... oh well, parties are fun and I've always been a very active party-girl. But lately I enjoy way more a dinner with my friends, going out for some sushi, drinking a bottle of wine at home with my boy while watching a movie - yes, one of those movies you'll never get to see the end
Have you ever felt like you were changing? Like passing from a phase into another?
I'm going to turn 23 in a month and I think I'm finally growing up.
Grow up - that's what is happening and that's what I need to pursue.
Today I've found myself getting lost in stupid little paranoia about my guy and my relationship :|
I've started to think how many times he used to dedicate me songs or make me small surprises in the first months of our relationship. Now things are naturally changed - evolved - and our love story has grown up as it needed to be in order to be healthy, which doesn't mean we have less sex or we are less passionate... we are just... more into a "routine", and not in a bad way.
The one speaking now it's my rational side. I've a childish side too, the one that last night and today has made me think of bad things like the fact that his more casual and relaxed behavior could show that he's starting to take me for granted.
Rationally speaking, again, I'm sure this is not happening: he's still the one preparing yummy foods for me, taking care of me even after a fight, cuddling me to sleep and teasing me in the morning when I wake up...
So well, definitely the pursuit for acting like "a grown-up woman" is still something I'm at. On many fronts.
But now let's talk about less serious themes.
Next week I'll be in MR once again... October 4th.
Did you miss my itty-bitties?!
I can't lie, I'm so proud of this set. Lavezzaro did such a great job! I truly hope you'll like it.
xoxo
Lauretta
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Can't wait to see your pretty face on the front page again. 10-4 will be a good day.