So I figured it may be easier to post something on here about how I'm feeling right now. A year ago today I made the biggest change in my life and I had no idea about the consequences my decision would have.
I had just come back from the most amazing week of my life at Snowbombing festival in Austria I cam home to my long term boyfriend. I hdnt been happy with the relationship for a really long time, coming back from the festival to a dirty house, to someone who couldn't be bothered to talk to me, made me crash back to reality 'what was I doing?' I ended it that night. He told me he had realised what he had and all the usual never leave me crap but I had been waiting for that for 2 years and it was just too little too late.
My mum came and got me and as far as I ws concerned that was it, he didn't take it well 2 and a half weeks later he took his own life, (I feel I can say this on here because nobody knows him or me so hopefully I'm not hurting anyone) I know me breaking up with him contributed to it, but it's not my fault, it's taken me a while to be able to believe that.
I had to live on my sisters sofa for months, he left me in crippling fraudulent debt and none of friends or family want to know me. It's been the hardest year of my life and I never thought at 27 I would have to go through something like this, but do you know what? I don't regret my decision for a second because overall I am so much happier.
I have the best friends a girl could ask for, my sister being one of them which is a miracle in itself, I've learned to live alone, I do and see more things, I do things that make ME smile, I'm on here which I never would've done!
I guess I just wanted to out it somewhere where hopefully no one will judge me ❤️
