lauranell

So tomorrow it will be a month that I have been with out my husband. I have come to find that I have some of the best friends that a girl could have. And I've also found that even at 37 I can turn some heads!! Even tho I still feel rather uncomfortable by it. I can feel the eyes on me, but yet I'm like whatever I'm not here to be gawkted at. I wonder if I will ever let myself be flirty with the gawkers of the world. I've been taken and have blown off the advaces rather easily for the last 22 years. Never had a disire to stray. Now that I'm not wanted by my husband I'm able to react to those advances, but something in me wont let me. Maybe it's the fact that I feel that my husband and I are ment to be together. But now that he dont want me, why cant I let myself be open to those that will show me the attention I've longed for over the last year? I dont want some perverted asshole. Although I can be rather perverted myself. Hell, I should play the perverted asshole role...HAHA! What the hell right. Play the game before I can be plaied?? Nah that's not me. I'm straight up. You see what you get. No games. I want respect and I will give the same in return. But treat me like chit and goodbye... I dont need it. Lord knows I've got enough of that on my hands right now!!! Thank God for my family and my wonderful friends. AND for all those guys that stare me down even tho I dont give them the fkin time of day... they make me feel hella good....LOL Till next time... sexy luv to all!!