lauralily

It's the weekend and its dull. It's freezing, I'm alone and its got to the point where I'm actually looking forward to watching the rugby world cup wiith my parents later - mainly because I have a packet of haribo to eat, one of the few pleasures orlistat will allow to stay in your system.

Being so bored today I actually got some work done. I'm really lacking in photoshoots as most of my models are only available at weekends and for the last 2 weekends I have visited the studios only to find myself locked out. Even when I'm being told time and time again that yes they will be open, just book your key on friday. Sucking.

Last night I spoke to my brother on the phone for the first time properly since he went away. His girlfriend is up with him for a whole week, this is not good news, but he sounded the happiest I'd heard him for ages and sounded determined he wasn't going to let her spoil uni for him. This is good.

Still not sure whats going on with me and the boy, he says we're ok but always finds better things to do to occupy his time with than seeing me.

I feel worn down all the time at the moment, i hate waking up in the morning thinking of all the things I have to do and how important they all are but I struggle to just get on and do them. I have to go to the hospital this week - all the way to Bristol again and I just know I'm gonna get another shot, just know it, maybe I'll take my camera and get some pictures of it. I hate the doctors at that hospital, they're so smarmy and 'holier than thou' i long for the day where I have the oppertunity to bring them down a peg or 2. Hate it.

Still its nearly time to go to London and that is one thing I am looking forward to. Roll on November!