When Angels Weep
All he dreamed of was a little girl
Curly red hair and blue eyes
An unbreakable bond
That In heaven, he hears you cry
They say there aren’t any tears there
But We know that isn’t true
Because when he sees you sob for him
Even the brightest days dim too
When in heaven your heart breaks
Trust me, my heart aches for you
A haunting that’s right in front of me
When secondary dreams come true
Watching stars glow without you
My souls cries out your name
The sky glistens in agony
What’s left will never be the same
Stripped of all beauty in the pain
A broken castle robbed of space
Your purest heart was so big
That God wouldn’t let it live
A once organized belief bleeds agnostic
Down to nothing but a handful of ash
Dying to know if you remain attached
That warm, safe haven is buried
Abandoned by the chaotic hope
Now a trigger for survival mode
Love too strong for your heart to hold
Love too strong, my soul was sold
The snow crunched under my feet
A world without you is in defeat
Until death do us part didn’t go my way
Whimpering a bargain to God
If you love me at all, you’ll let him stay
Lord, take it all and bring him back
For he is everything my spirit lacks
I’m still here but died that day too
Smiling behind tears is nothing new
The snow keeps falling without you
A memory faded gray and blue
Your voice still soothes those demons
But that privilege is far gone
Damaged dreams are brand new
Shred the wound; throw it all away
Those condescending can take a bow
“Come what May,” my devoted vow
Solitary confinement far too loud
Forever means nothing
I forgot that nothing lasts forever
The lonely secret that wasn’t kept and
On that day, the angels wept because
God wouldn’t let you live
I wrote this for my husband who passed away suddenly in 2019.
