lasttofall

i've haven't updated in a while, but i'm back. since i've last updated i've liberated myself into an apartment, pierced my left nostril twice, gotten a new tattoo, and guaged my ears to 5/8ths. i've also adopted 2 cats named glenn and gg. they kill.

sat night i was in bed and i heard a series of 5 gunshots, followed by police sirens 15 mins later. sunday when i woke up, i went out to my car and there were policemen on horseback. it's kinda creepin me out, mainly because we were gonna go steal someones grill and bring it here at 4am when this happened at 3am. kinda fucked up.

i pretty much stayed home on sunday, i went to megs house to get my pants back, went to the laundrymat to do laundry but it was too late cause they closed at 9.

i've decided i'm gonna go back to college next year. i think i want to be a teacher. i don't know what i want to teach, but mainly something to do with art. lately i've been reevaluating my choices in the last year, and realized they weren't the best but i want to work harder to make things better.

i just want to be able to provide for my family when i get older. i want to be able to put my kids through college. i want to be able to give my kids nice things. i want my kids to not have a childhood like mine.

carol's been getting mad at me a lot cause i'm acting distant, but she doesn't understand that i'm like freaking out now that it's time for me to grow up. i'm not a kid anymore and i need to stop acting like i am. i'm trying to figure out what i want my future to be like. but the scary thing is, i can't see myself with carol forever. i don't know why, but i just can't. i'm sorry.