I know it's been awhile, really just been going through it. What feels like an endless job search as I watch people I thought I could trust bail, and now we're knee deep in a time of year I not only loved and worked tirelessly for but was the event that fucked me over last year.
In fact it's nearly a year since a godawful person willingly lied about me and effectively ended my relationship with a career I'd fought endlessly for. This set in place a course of events that'd end my job of 4 years and that would have never happened were it not for this horrible selfish person. Made worse that now I'm surrounded by the season and seeing grossly under qualified people gifted jobs I scraped and clawed and bled for to always be told I wasn't good enough.
I have applied to hundreds of places since I last posted, one larger company in particle I've applied to over 50 positions. While another company jerked me around for 3 interviews and never bothered to tell me I didn't get it....
I'm sick, and tired and resentful for what's happened. I perpetually feel like I don't be long and no matter how hard I try I'm shut down. All while seeing people who couldn't be bothered to give a fraction of the effort I did be rewarded. It's infuriating and has made the last year+ difficult to bear.
Frustrated is an understatement, just fucking over it....
