lastserenade

I know it's been awhile, really just been going through it. What feels like an endless job search as I watch people I thought I could trust bail, and now we're knee deep in a time of year I not only loved and worked tirelessly for but was the event that fucked me over last year.

In fact it's nearly a year since a godawful...
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The past month and a half have been rough, alot of fighting corporate BS and pushing to move forward. I'm working on something right now that will hopefully steer me in the right direction to a better place.

Fingers crossed.....

Been keeping it together but God it's been rough. Anxiety and depression are nothing knew but it got real bad since this time last year.

I was pushing hard to get a job I've wanted for years and worked my ass off for. When I finally got it all I was subjected to was an unmitigated nightmare and shitshow. I was overworked and exhausted to...
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First time, won't be the last. Still recovery from the traveling and loooong nights but here's a few pics...

Constant running around and flying (Megacon was also the previous weekend, I'll post about that later). I was able to finally meet in person my niece who is now also my God daughter. It was a nice break after an incredibly difficult month with one of the hardest moments of my life. Hopefully better days the rest of the year.

Dealing with anxiety disorder/depression which was rough

Even had for a 2nd time in 5 months where I was fighting for my career and livelihood

It's been exhausting

This year has been...... challenging. Every time I thought I'd made huge strides the universe would knock me back down.

Too many times I said "this is one of the worst days of my life" or "this is a nightmare". That's not overreacting either it's been hell.

Still reeling from alot of it and trying to figure out how to move forward. As we say...
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A lot learned and not much went as planned with some big events and battles ahead. Here's hoping tomorrow hits right and 38 is the year.....

Last week was unequivocally one of the worst weeks of my life. Betrayed and pretty much left alone in the worst possible way. Just days of anxiety before any kind of relief. It's made me put alot in perspective. Especially when this weekend is a con I haven't done since the pandemic and my birthday is rapidly approaching. I've decided to take this next year...
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As we're now 9 months into what has been a very wild stressful year I have been given an opportunity that still seems surreal to me. I can't even find the words yet so here's an obligatory photo dump....