lastbadger

I love music. For such a long time it has been all i wanted to do with my life. But It seems to be gettting farther and farther from me. And I get scared because I can see the possibility of it having to fall back, not be my lifes work. Not that it really ever was I'd just hoped it'd be.

Fuck I can barely write this. Imagining my life with this dying away is fucking tearing me apart. But I realize that I've done so little to contribute back to the artform that has given me so much I have no right to demand any more of it. The friends I have that are musicians are my modern day heroes. Gods directly down from Olympus and I have no right to be in their presence with no sacrifice to bring.

I've had a guitar since fifteen I guess I just couldn't be bothered to learn it. Fuck ME!