lastbadger

I wanna have that feeling where you just release. It's like standing on a mountain top and taking in the world around you. Where all nature seems to fill you up, stretching your natural borders making your conscius porous. Until all existense just seems to flow through you. No thought lingers but they all run pass. Yeah that'd be cool.

I had a fantasy today about rebellion. It was the dark sorta thing that I don't like to think about. A kinda romanticised "We're all gonna die in the morning so lets live our last night wonderfully" kinda thing. I wonder what it'd be like to have something to die for. Having something to live for seems so played out. I have plenty of reasons to live, Obligations, Self Preservation, Fear of the unknown. I just wonder what it would feel like to have something that overshadowed them all.

I ate a caramel apple today.