I got punched by a hot naked chick the other night. Monday night to be exact on that. Yup still getting a bruise going on where she punched me. So i might be digging this chick to much and looking for more outa it than i should be. But, this girl Meri is fucking cool. Not that i mean is she the one for many years to come......... probably not. Meri can be fun for a while. She does live all the way into Boston, and that is a 2 hr drive that is not so fun.
She is into communism which rocks my fucking world. But, then there is one line she said how she wants to change the world. That tells me she is just a wild child. Maybe she was feeling what i had been thinking or how i act. Not sure if that is true. She did say it, and if it is well than holy damn. She could be damn near close to a good friend and more.
The fucked up part is how we met, and ended up having sex that night. She apparently things im wicked sexi and all, but not a word to how my attitude is. It aggravates me that she would think it matters to my own psych that i look good or not. I guess her stating it just means she thinks so about me. I just heard her say it once that night, and all the other times made it seem fake. I cant remember how many times she said Im sexi, but damn it makes me feel like your kidding about it.
Another thing that pissed me off. I told her this story about how a lady told her husband to stop talking to me, but then that lady started talking to me again. Meri then almost pulls the same thing the next day. Except she ask me a question and then tells me she wants to leave me alone. Like dude, for real. Minor but it holds a huge spot in my mind..... why? i guess i will find out in my therapy that is also pissing me off.
Wow this guy is fucking blowing up my universe. Jeez doing the same thing almost Meri is doing. keep telling me im angry my therapist does. OK i heard you the first time dude. Holy fuck now im getting pissed cause you keep telling me. why don't u fix it instead of telling me.
The hole sex thing was her and James idea. Personally I was and still am having a blast talking to her. This girl is from Finland and travels all over Europe all the time. Maybe because she is doing what I wish i could be doing. hmmmm that is probably where all the feelings come from. Either way envy is fine i feel to this situation. I would totally ask her to take me on trips, but that is not important. The important thing above all is that she has something to say. The things she has to say are Fun, and well there is not many girls like her.
idk She is like set up to marry some dude from Finland already.
Meri tells me that this guy is not to find out about her sleeping with someone, but that she would be crushed if he slept with someone. That makes me feel so skeptical about her. A pure hypocrite comment that is
We did go out for breakfast at like noon time and how did i feel comfortable with her in the public eye. She was very aggressive for me but also mellow about it. There was totally alot of ass grabbing on her part. That i was not so much into. Should i have said something? The time spent with her was alot of fun. I mean even if i did get used.
The plan is that Meri is coming bak up next week and spending a couple days up here. If she spends them with me..... who knows? She said no sex this time, and i am totally cool with that. What i will not be cool with is that she acts all well just different. That is a huge fear.
All i know is that breakfast was a blast with her. I have 2 days off that she will be up here, so let us hope that Meri and I get some breakfast again. Defiantly at a different spot thou. Pegs had really nasty pancakes, and steak there was just not so great.....hmmm i guess im gona have to get some food maybe if she crashes here. Then again she wants to chill with James so i bet she will probably stay over there.
yup i totally went into a tj max and thought it was all chick stuff and walked out......whoops found out later today that there is a guys section
hmmm im going to sleep. iv got work at 8. i hope i get up
She is into communism which rocks my fucking world. But, then there is one line she said how she wants to change the world. That tells me she is just a wild child. Maybe she was feeling what i had been thinking or how i act. Not sure if that is true. She did say it, and if it is well than holy damn. She could be damn near close to a good friend and more.
The fucked up part is how we met, and ended up having sex that night. She apparently things im wicked sexi and all, but not a word to how my attitude is. It aggravates me that she would think it matters to my own psych that i look good or not. I guess her stating it just means she thinks so about me. I just heard her say it once that night, and all the other times made it seem fake. I cant remember how many times she said Im sexi, but damn it makes me feel like your kidding about it.
Another thing that pissed me off. I told her this story about how a lady told her husband to stop talking to me, but then that lady started talking to me again. Meri then almost pulls the same thing the next day. Except she ask me a question and then tells me she wants to leave me alone. Like dude, for real. Minor but it holds a huge spot in my mind..... why? i guess i will find out in my therapy that is also pissing me off.
Wow this guy is fucking blowing up my universe. Jeez doing the same thing almost Meri is doing. keep telling me im angry my therapist does. OK i heard you the first time dude. Holy fuck now im getting pissed cause you keep telling me. why don't u fix it instead of telling me.
The hole sex thing was her and James idea. Personally I was and still am having a blast talking to her. This girl is from Finland and travels all over Europe all the time. Maybe because she is doing what I wish i could be doing. hmmmm that is probably where all the feelings come from. Either way envy is fine i feel to this situation. I would totally ask her to take me on trips, but that is not important. The important thing above all is that she has something to say. The things she has to say are Fun, and well there is not many girls like her.
idk She is like set up to marry some dude from Finland already.
Meri tells me that this guy is not to find out about her sleeping with someone, but that she would be crushed if he slept with someone. That makes me feel so skeptical about her. A pure hypocrite comment that is
We did go out for breakfast at like noon time and how did i feel comfortable with her in the public eye. She was very aggressive for me but also mellow about it. There was totally alot of ass grabbing on her part. That i was not so much into. Should i have said something? The time spent with her was alot of fun. I mean even if i did get used.
The plan is that Meri is coming bak up next week and spending a couple days up here. If she spends them with me..... who knows? She said no sex this time, and i am totally cool with that. What i will not be cool with is that she acts all well just different. That is a huge fear.
All i know is that breakfast was a blast with her. I have 2 days off that she will be up here, so let us hope that Meri and I get some breakfast again. Defiantly at a different spot thou. Pegs had really nasty pancakes, and steak there was just not so great.....hmmm i guess im gona have to get some food maybe if she crashes here. Then again she wants to chill with James so i bet she will probably stay over there.
yup i totally went into a tj max and thought it was all chick stuff and walked out......whoops found out later today that there is a guys section
hmmm im going to sleep. iv got work at 8. i hope i get up