Wednesday Mar 18, 2009

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I haven't eaten since my brother's birthday meal on Monday, and I don't plan to. Ephidrine will be my new friend for now - coke and speed once I can get hold of some. I'm hitting the self distruct. I hate myself so I'm gonna show my mind and body how much I hate it. It'll help me to forget too.
liv:
well... self hating is a path that nobody gets to understand until u are in...but even though im hitting that path now and then... the one when things stop makign sense and u just want to hurt urself so much... maybe its time for asking for some real help

instead throw it all away...just think what are the things u used to think about or like before the ball feels like explodingand being the more rational to do...

I know i do suck myself how i do dare to say u think twice...but im here on fucking therapy trying to burn my own demons and inviting them back home now and then...

what if u need other things than that? what if everything was completed distorted now?
i know... its sucks, this world stinks and sometimes one just want to fuck it all , punch anyone and specially hurt the person that seems annoys more to us... ourselves but maybe theres another world round the corner less digusting and somewhere we can fit in...

*hugs*
renna:
oh, hun....
listen, I don't want to try and pretend that I know what you're going through, as everybody's demons are their own, but know that I have been down that path more than I'd like to admit, and if you need someone to listen without passing judgment, send me a message, k?
People care about you. A lot. Don't forget it.
hugs n' stuff!

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