I really needed to update this blog. That last one was far too depressing and had to go! People judge you on first impressions and I don't want people thinking I'm a depressed, suicidal, lovesick maniac.
Apart from the agonising cough I have right now, I'm feeling much better - about everything. Obviously I don't know how long it will last and I'm sure there will be days when I'm not feeling so good, but I just have to remember to remind myself that things will always get better.
I'm actually quite looking forward to my future. Looking forward to being able to do things I want to do without having to consider anybody else and without them holding me back, whether it be intentionally or not. Not being able to travel because the other half of me is skint, not being able to go places because he doesn't want to. I'm gonna be able to live where I want, do what I want when i want with who I want, get 2 pet rats once I move out, have my hair whatever colour I want, shave my head again if I want to , wear whatever the fuck I want, say whatever the fuck I want, get whatever tattoos I want without them being laughed at, eat whatever the fuck I want without being made to feel guilty and have my own opinions without them getting beaten down or told they're wrong. Yeah, I think I'm gonna like this ya know.
Apart from the agonising cough I have right now, I'm feeling much better - about everything. Obviously I don't know how long it will last and I'm sure there will be days when I'm not feeling so good, but I just have to remember to remind myself that things will always get better.
I'm actually quite looking forward to my future. Looking forward to being able to do things I want to do without having to consider anybody else and without them holding me back, whether it be intentionally or not. Not being able to travel because the other half of me is skint, not being able to go places because he doesn't want to. I'm gonna be able to live where I want, do what I want when i want with who I want, get 2 pet rats once I move out, have my hair whatever colour I want, shave my head again if I want to , wear whatever the fuck I want, say whatever the fuck I want, get whatever tattoos I want without them being laughed at, eat whatever the fuck I want without being made to feel guilty and have my own opinions without them getting beaten down or told they're wrong. Yeah, I think I'm gonna like this ya know.
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liv:
wow this las paragraph was so awesome...i gotta jump at that train to! freedom is a choice indeed!
elza:
it is! sharpie on paper