laruby1565

Its weird to be back here again.Its here that I used to come to try and hide from things I knew were making me and everyone else unhappy,but I didnt have the strength to fix.Now I finally fixed what needed fixing,and this place just reminds me of it all. I have moved on so far,but I keep testing this place again in case I ever...
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Well...hey...Guess who came back?! Im kinda surprised to be here-someone reactivated my acount,I owe them big time.So,whats changed? Well,Im geting divorced,Im living with two flatmatesone of whom turned into my perfect man, and my dreds were removed to reveal a white afro of epic proportions So...its good to be back,now bring on the naked!

I may be around a little less at the mo-husband and I parted ways,and he got custody of the 'puter! So Ill be checking in via mates etc as often as I can. Ill lose my email addy,but Ill have another one soon,and Im always around to contact on here x

"Unfaithful"

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know...
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normally I wouldnt get personal on here


but Ive pretty much got to the end of my tether and its time to let go or burst. My marriage has hit the skids at 90mph,things just couldnt carry on that way,theres only so much a person can stand before they just have to crack.Im not a cruel person,and you guys dont need to know all the...
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No love is ever lost,it just mutates or tames.No apologies,Im not in the mood,nor will I ever be to apologise for what I did because there is the knowledge that I would do it again,even if you stood right there in front of me.Sometimes desperation,desire and fuck you can make an explosive combination.Explosions like that can knock down walls or just blow your lights out.Im...
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I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're...
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holy crap,at least 2 consecutive blogs-whats wrong with me?!

Actually,the main thing wrong is that Ive actually started getting sociable again,and my liver cant handle it.Neither can my poor frazzled,sleep deprived brain. Unfortunately,I am getting to the point where I have to start thinking clearly about the future,and the only thing I can clearly see is that I need a pint glass in front of...
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Survived the party. NEVER,EVER again!!! Also survived foul bloody hangover from a work party-someone else leaving...and I can honestly say I was the most miserable irritating bitch all day afterwards.Im NOT used to hangovers,esp not ones that bad,I mean,its not even like I drunk that much,about 5 double JD and cokes,several cans of fosters,jaegermeister shots with red bull...hmm,well,maybe I overdid it a tad...either way,so many...
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Flu sucks

I was sick of the last whining entry-Im not always so miserable...Im just waiting for the sun to come out

Well today sucked. Some bastard has hacked my Myspace-which I use to keep in touch with all my friends who are out of the country-and the trip that my daughter and my husband were due to take to Germany tomorrow (leaving yours truly with 6 days with a house to myself for the first time in 7 years) has been placed in jeopardy by the...
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