lara6666

I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to be home. I have done this before gone away on trips like this, but I am taking this really hard this time. I miss my daughters arms wrapped around me, I miss the smell of my house, I miss my bed, I miss my bathtub.

I can't pinpoint why this trip is so different then any other trip I have been on, but it is.

Yesterday was really hard. I was wearing jeans and a tee-shirt and this woman came to me and asked me if I was sure I was in the right spot. Then I overheard these two older guys saying something about my hair. I just feel like I don't fit in here among these lawyer types. Although I really am a lawyer type myself. Just sucks.

I really haven't done much since I got here. Just driving around and sitting in my hotel room. I should go shopping or find a nice cafe to sit in for awhile, but I just don't feel like it. I would rather sit here alone and be bummed, I guess.

I am so bummed that I don't even want to drink, because I know that will make everything worse. But oh how I could go for a drink right now.

I know I have to make the best of this and I am really trying. Really and truly I am. It's just really hard to see what is so good about me being here.






PS- I also really need to get laid.