Sometimes we all need to admit that things are too big for us and we need help. For me yesterday was one of those days. less than 24 hours after my op Im jumping about, taking my laundry to get dried at the laundrette, big get tae fuck sized bag. Had no problem walking the mile and a half with the bag and my rucksag both balanced on my right shoulder. then took the dried items to my sisters house.
Went into town, got some books and gtraphic novels out the library, and went for lunch with my sister. Cool to catch up. A lot of the time its me her and her fiance, who is an amazing guy, but we never get much time just me and her. She's different on her own, more the person I recognise. so that was cool. Im going back to Scotland with her for a few days next week so thats good. Although Ive already planned to meet some friends. We're like night and day. she's quiet and likes her own company, I need company of others and extroverted. Find that funny. We dont even look similar..haha
Anyway, stayed with her most the day and had tea at her house. a glass of wine which went straight to my head, in that it made me lethargic not tipsy. I realised I had forgotten a painkiller by 2 hours and could start to feel the metal inside me, which let me tell you, is not a nice sensation. I have an extremely high pain threshold, but this is just gross. Its not the pain, its the sensation....So I take my painkiller, wait 15 for it to kick in and decide Im going to walk home. My sister insists on a Taxi, which she would pay for. Foolish pride makes me say no. She had also made me a chicken salad for supper, so I get to the corner of her street, and she calls me. Takes me ages to get my phone Im struggling that much, when I do she tells me Ive left the salad. I know I cant go back because Its taken me 5 minutes to walk a few hundred feet. So I tell her Im fine and I'll get it again. asically it took me 45 minutes to walk approximately a mile. Daft bastard!
So, I now have to understand I have limitations. I cant afford to get an infection and really need to keep it low key for a while. I had tickets for the 'Ben & Jerry' festival next weekend, and got offered latitude this weekend, so that sucks that I cant go. Especially when my mate is texting me updates of how good bands were at latitude..yeah cheers jonny!
So, 6 days till Scotland...26 days to Canada...and not that long really until Halloween.....
emma_treasure:
Sounds like you've had a helluva year! Asking for help just means that you're human... Well, all apart from the metal bits in you 
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