laphroaig

God my life is fucked.......

Christ, at the sake of sounding like an outdated mysogonistic pig....which I clearly am not, why do I always get mixed messages from women who approach me in the first place?????? aaarrrggghhh!!!

So I meat this girl, we hit it off, I mean we are both talking proper geek stuff...Zombie survival guides, star wars trivia...Bit of fun, nice and easy and no pressure from me. I even stay over and sleep in spare room as dont want to rush into things...tells me hasnt been in a relationship in 5 years, which is cool by me. Im not really racing to commit...but we click on so many levels. Starts asking me to meet parents etc, which I think is a bit early....then sends me an email saying that cant deal with relationships as she is having panic attacks. I totally understand, but why do I have to be so nice??? I should be a total bastard for a change as if that would help...no I just hope she's ok...I like venting on here and dont really mean what I say...Ive just never been totally dumped by email....FFS!!!!!

Other news from today...My ex giving me ultimatums about the house we both own, me scraping to survive...I start getting emails from a kitten food manufacturer..like I dont miss my little dudes enough...I transfer money from one accdount to the other, which normally takes 5 minutes, now told 3 working days...I have 8.50 to live on til Monday.....oh my life is great......aaaarrrrgggghhhhhh....Busesw here run too slow to jump under and I cant afford to drivve to the coast and jump....Kidding......ahhhhhhhhh