Through the summer and the fall we had each other, that was all, just she and I together like it was meant to be.
"Cats have no feelings" you are very wrong, otherwise I wouldn't cry so much and still call your name between sobs. Through tears I think of the privilege I had to meet you, to share my life with you, always. I don't want the pain to overwhelm the love because it wouldn't be right, so if I look at you now in these photos I smile, the tears run down my cheeks because I think about what you were, that we gave each other, I think about how much I will miss you.
You just lacked the word and I'm happy you left in peace, without suffering, in my arms wrapped up in my scarf. Now I'm calm, now I don't see you feeling bad anymore. You always accepted me, you tried to warn me about things you didn't like but I did them anyway, your pains were mine too.
I tried to write everything that exists between you and me, everything I think, I feel, I hope, I swear, I want, what I scam, what I think I understand, what I know I don't understand and all what. Then I removed everything is not essential, everything that is scary, everything that is not sincere, everything that is not true, everything that doesn't matter, everything that doesn't count, everything that can be misunderstood, disputed, mystified, forgotten, lost: in short, all that. In the end there was this: I'm happy when you're happy, I'm sad when you're sad. And when you're not there I miss you. A kiss (indecent, of course).
Friend, sister, soul mate, essential. Bye Cat.
Forever Yours, Lallu
